Again
Mood:  not sure
I hate working. I always have these grand plans, but they never work. I don't know if it because I have no business sense or I am just lazy. I fail so many times, I just give up trying. I always start some weird screem but I always quit. I guess I will always be in customer service answering the phone. I always feel I should do somthing else. I feel I have a calling to do something. I just have no idea what it is. Later

My Life So far
I figure I might tell u dear reader about my life so..far. I was born in Amityville Long Island, NY back on 03/14/1972, (exciting Stuff I know but yeah it fills up space) To my Mom Jane and My Dad Stevn, Pop died Nov of last year, at the "old" age of 57, more on that later. I was to be the oldest of 3, my sister was a Xmas prestend on 12/24/73, and my bro was a surpise on 8/26/76. We lived in Port Jefferson NY until 1983, then we moved to Lindnehurst, NY where my mom still the house. I had no friends until 10th I read and watch TV a lot. I watch porn and read porn mags a lot. I would say since the age of 12. I still love pornage in all it form my wife calls it my hobby and I am a very big collector of the stuff. Hey I know what i like. I meet my first Andrew in 10th grade, he is good guy. The llater that year I meet Marc, another good guy. Mac introduce me to role-playing, Dangon and Dragons Stuff. I really enjoyed that. Threw Marc I meet, Brain, Vern,Amando, Sam, Kevin (Marc's bro) and many more I can't remember. Then I meet Tom working at Caldor in the Summer of 89. that was the group. For many Years. Until I meet my wife on Aug 1.1996. We Role-played, played Spades and Scrabble. Went to the Movies it seems like everyday. Then I meet my wife and everything change. One thing about her she liked Porn or should I say didn't mind Porn, like is too strong of a word. She is OK with it up to a point. But that was good enought to me. I will expend on this stuff. I just wanted to write it down. Talk Later bye

today another dollar gone
So we bought a car today. IT a 97 ford windstar and the service engine soon light is already on. We will bring it back but at least we have something this weekend. Not that we go anywhere anyway, we stay home and let the kids run around. SOme days we go to the park, or just wonder arounds stores or the mall. Today it was the Furuter outlet nothing good. I want more excirement. I want thirlls, but usually paind and agrvition goes with it. I guess I have been beated down so many times in somany ways, I usually am defeated before I being. I hope my kids are better then me. That is what most parents want. But for my kids it should be easy I am alreadfy at the bollom, all they have to do is stand up.

hard to do
It hard keeping up with the blog, I started thinking I going to write in it every night. But of course usual my addition to porn keeps getting in the way. I love porn it my hobby next to watching TV, and eating. I only use the computer to get news and more porn. I love the spread4u.com web site I am there everynight. Every night I check my email, and read the news and then BAM!, spread4u.com or some other porn is site is on my computer.

It probably because I like talking to people I love listening to people and hearing what they say. Even if I don't agree with there ideas I still listen it's just me that's the way i am. I really don't like to talk about myself i am very boring but other people are much more inresting then me. So I read a lot. i keep trying to write but I can never say what I mean. I tell a person something, and they think the oppsite of what i mean. I never can get my ideas accross the way i want. I never know what I am doing wrong. I keep trying to figure it out how to say what i want to say, one day I hope. I hope iam 32 right now, anylonger and I won't even care what i say. LAter

today
It been quiet I trying to get things done. But it so hard for me to do things. I try and I try but I always wind up doing stuff I shoulded do. Well more later idf I have tme

Quiet
Well for once it is calming down around here. This morning we took the kids in my Father-in-law's car, to 2 car dealerships. I haven't had much luck with cars or really anything else in life for that matter. My 92 Grand Magris Died, and that leaves us with a 94 ford tempo which is very small. I am trying to get a 97 Windstar. We had lunch out and the kids went to the park. The problem is now what. In NY we would go to the malls, parks and the Beach. I meet my wife on Robetr Moses Beach on Long Island. We would even go in the winter time warp up with the kids. I miss that beach and all of Long Island's beaches. Here where do I go? What do I do? I hate PA. I miss NY.

hi
So I get 3 days off, hurray. I took 162 calls today. Played on the internet. Talked with my wife. No much. I hate my job. I like customer service but i can't stand my job. I work for Verizon DSL in shipping all I do is track packages. I used to work for CPS, Concord Payment Systems I loved that job. But it didn't pay the bills, I worked there for 3 years, but I lost my apt and had to move in with my parents and now I live with my in-laws. Me my wife and 2 kids not good to say the least. I need more money. I need a better job. Where I I only know how to answer the phone. Well I look and hope for a new job. Really hope. At least I know html a little. i know hoe to write. I have to really look. i have tio try. Weel util next time

not much
So not much happend today. I brought my wife to Wal -mart because that what you do in PA. Tomorrow work again. Nothing excite hope we have this weekend

Day One, Page One
Well now I am doing this, I either I bored or creative. I probably am both. My day was quiet at work, I only took 134 calls. I work in a call center in the customer service area. I have been in customer service for 7 years for different companies. My kids are asleep I have 2 Emilyand Lori. My wife is alseep I have one been married for six years now. I live in PA and I hate it, I lived in NY for 31 years of my life and never wanted to move now I am here. I here I am a nice guy with a good sense of humor. I try I rarely success but i try. I love my kids and my wife. I love my computer and writing HTML. I hope I get better at this writing stuff. Right now that all I have. Maybe tomorrow I write more I shal see. Later